Saturday, December 3, 2011

12-3-2011 Saturday and Dannii's mass is coming back

This is a first for me.  I have not worked ALL week, and the office told me that I have NO students for Monday, either.  I do not like this.  I can't pay any of my bills.  This is making me sick to my stomach just thinking about it.

Its nice to have this time off, but since I am so worried about how to pay any bills and such, let alone get any food in the house, I haven't been able to do much around the house, but sit and mope, or be on the computer.

Christmas is in a few weeks, and of course, I have no money to speak of.  I truly do not  like this feeling.  I trust in my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, but the weak part of me, is scared.  I only have one paycheck coming in next week, and that is for 10 hours.  After they take taxes out, I am not going to have anything left.

Ok, enough of that.  Yesterday I followed Dannii outside to see if he was going to go poo.  Which he tried.  He's back to straining, but nothing like he was doing before.  So, I called the vet to see what they would charge, just to do a rectal exam.  No charge.  So I brought him in around closing time.  The vet did the rectal right there in the waiting room.  Yep, its coming back.  Not very big yet, but was big enough for Dannii to yelp and whine when she inserted her finger in his rectum.  Two weeks ago, there was nothing there, so she told me to drop Dannii Prednison from 1.5 tablets, down to just 1 tablet.  I wonder if that is the reason for this returning?  So, now he's back up to the 1.5 tablets.  She also told me to truly consider starting the CCNU (which is a chemo pill).  The only thing is, that after 21 days, he would be off of it for 7 days, and in there somewhere, they would need to do the CBC/Chem panel to check his liver values, and his white blood cells.  If that's not done, I could be killing Dannii, and not even know it.

With No money coming in, I don't know how I would be able to pay to have the CBC/Chem panel done?  The oncologist, does not take payments in any way shape or form.  My vets office is not all that big, so they are not able to do everything that they oncologists office can do.

I mixed 2 tablespoons of organic cottage cheese, with 1 teaspoon of Barleans 100% organic flaxseed oil, and 1 egg.  Ended up like a smoothie, and Dannii drank it all up!  He even was licking the bowl clean afterwards.

You all come back again, now hear?

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